Friday, December 09, 2011
I'm trying! It just doesn't seem like the Christmas season yet ... so when I had an extra 15 minutes after errands while Miss M was at dance class, I went to Rhema to see the lights. Thankfully, my camera was in the trunk, so I played for a while. I even tried to create a makeshift bokeh frame out of my drink cover. Have you ever tried to purposely rip a heart shape into plastic? Not easy! I'll have to go back with a better creation.
In the meantime, I have been thinking about symbolic things ... anything to give a frame to my thoughts or feelings or place in life. Tonight it's the unfocused but "new focused" interest that can be found by looking beyond the space between me and my environment.
There's more to a scene than what I can see in front of me.
There's more to my environment than what I can focus on.
There's more to my life than what I can carve out of my own efforts.
Somehow ... I want to get my focus off of me, off of the things around me, and set it so far past it all that a new picture appears ...
Something new, different, patterned with possibility, intersecting with inspiration, hinting toward a horizon ripe for discovery.
Maybe this will be my bokeh holiday ... looking past, focusing beyond myself, and finding new beauty.
Tuesday, December 06, 2011
I glance her way and get a glimpse of dimensional time. I absorb a present moment different than I've known before. I see a flash of her future and a flashback of my past. I see her beauty and wonder how I missed the the time that turned her into a young woman.
Monday, December 05, 2011
My little one is growing up. She's becoming a young lady and a beautiful performer. I may need to do a series of photos just from her years in the Nutcracker!
And I do want to gripe just a bit. I brought my camera to the performance hoping I'd hear those magic words: "No flash photography." And I did! Those words are my magic because I do NOT use flash (and truly hate it when all cameras are penalized because of those who). So when I hear that, it's equal to saying, "Go ahead! Take all the photos you want as long as you don't use flash."
There was one lady evidently with the production (she had a name tag, but I couldn't read the name) who REALLY DID NOT LIKE ME taking those photos. But far beyond me, she made quite the scene ... kept turning around, glaring, and giving very loud "SHHHH"s and even imitating me by saying something ... I heard "CLICK! CLICK! CLICK!" being uttered between other loud whispers I tried to ignore. It's one thing when a camera makes a natural noise, and completely another when a human imitates, shushes, stares, glares, and turns around constantly.
I'm guessing it's people like her who are behind all the "NO _____" rules. I would like to say that I am also not obtrusive like some can be (and I've heard used as a reason why cameras aren't allowed) ... I just sit in my seat and capture what I can. Why? Because of the above. This is how I experience these things best - behind a lens, making memories for my loved ones and me to share.