In September of 2023, I started a journey of reclaiming my home. I prayed and tucked scriptures into the four corners of my property and every door. This one pictured was the only one that remained.
Psalm 126:4–6 (NIV)Restore our fortunes Lord.... Those who sow with tears will reap with songs of joy. Those who go out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with them.
By unknown providence, I picked up a wooden hand-carved plate at an estate sale that illustrated the Bible verse. When I took communion for the first time in my semi-restored home, this was my bread plate (the purpose for which I bought it). I didn't realize until later that it matched the Bible verse!
We all have our stories that involve great loss. We go out weeping. Hopefully we carry seed to sow, which I view as anything from acts of service to support of any kind given to others. My hope is that we keep moving forward through tears. It is possible to defeat discouragement and stand strong! Surely there is a reward when we rebuild.
It makes me think of a verse in Ephesians (which also happens to be a part of the etymology of "restore" below):
Ephesians 6:13–14 (NKJV)
13 Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
14 Stand therefore ...
Sometimes standing is all one can do! And sometimes it can knock you down. That's what happened to me. The same month that an all-out effort was put in the works to restore my ravaged home, my brother died. I had been traveling back and forth from Oklahoma to Minnesota to help with his care after our father died three years earlier. I stood, but barely.
We waited to bury his ashes until his birthday in April, which is helpful in the extreme North Dakota winters and digging a hole in the family graveyard there. That's when I felt like my feet were knocked out from beneath me. Energy was zapped. I could barely work. And eventually I encountered a health crisis that gave me a reason to drop clients and truly rest. Euphoria in that release lasted a day or two. Then the rest of the journey began.
I am writing this blog post half a year later. While both journeys of restoration continue, I am able to look back and see how fortunate I am to have not ended up learning of health conditions on the other side of an emergency room experience—or worse yet, not at all and simply died alone in my home. My doctor and I recently had a conversation about the the stakes I unknowingly navigated.
That's completely due to the Lord's hand on my life. He has preserved me!
But back to restoration, regardless of the kind of restoration (health, home, etc.) indicates to me that something good was lost and is now given back or built back. I keep a newsletter pinned on my corkboard that shared a glimpse of the work involved to restore an apartment that was so trashed no one else would buy it. The minister shared Greek words and gave Biblical meanings to it all. (I happened to find the online version here.) What stood out to me was "rescue" and "one's return to safety and soundness." That's one thing I am immensely thankful for!
So in an attempt to wrap up what could be an even longer post, I pray for each one who may come across these words while in the midst of pain and tears. May you stand and be made firm again and again and again and again—however long it takes.
restore (verb) re·store ri-ˈstȯr
transitive verb
1 : give back, return
2 : to put or bring back into existence or use
3 : to bring back to or put back into a former or original state : renew
4 : to put again in possession of something
restoration (noun) res·to·ra·tion ˌre-stə-ˈrā-shən
1 : an act of restoring or the condition of being restored: such as
a : a bringing back to a former position or condition : reinstatement
b : restitution
c : a restoring to an unimpaired or improved condition
d : the replacing of missing teeth or crowns
2 : something that is restored
especially : a representation or reconstruction of the original form (as of a fossil or a building)
3 (capitalized)
a : the reestablishing of the monarchy in England in 1660 under Charles II
b : the period in English history usually held to coincide with the reign of Charles II but sometimes to extend through the reign of James II
I also really like what I found on etymonline.com:
restore** (v.)
c. 1300, restoren, "to give back," also, "to build up again, repair; renew, re-establish; free from the effects of sin; bring back to a former and better state," from Old French restorer, from Latin restaurare "repair, rebuild, renew." This is from re- "back, again" (see re-) + -staurare, not attested by itself but also in instaurare "to set up, establish; renew, restore," etc., from PIE root *sta- "to stand, make or be firm."
From late 14c. as "to cure, heal, bring back to a vigorous state;" of objects, beliefs, etc., "bring back to an original state or condition," 1670s. Related: Restored; restoring.
If anyone would like to see some moments from my home restoration, I happened to make some updates on TikTok (which hopefully will remain accessible for a long time to come)!
*"restore" and "restoration." Merriam-Webster.com. (22 April 2025).
**"restoration." Etymonline.com. (24 April 2025)
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